Wednesday

Work wasn't too bad and it relates a lot to how I am feeling.
Tried a new urologist. Slightly better than the previous one but still no one really cares. Especially when the problem isn't common. Doctors tend to blame me for their shortcomings.
At hospital there was a big mirror and I looked a bit feminine. Fucking loved it. Even if it wasn't much. Sometimes I get into a weird state when I feel I'm a woman. At that time it feels like it still isn't clear but deep inside I know it. But when I get out of that state I am again super confused as usual.