Thursday

Stayed in bed a bit too long and skipped my face and hair washing. This day started with me losing/failing which as usual put me in a slightly negative state. Immediately noticed me starting to react negatively to everything. Managed to push myself the opposite way, mostly by focusing on important stuff and my goals. I could say I succeeded.
On the way back home I saw a young and pretty mother walking her child. That hit me quick and hard. For a while it felt like I suffered a bit less... maybe I would quickly shift my focus... but sometimes the hit is just too fucking painful...