Friday

I overslept a little but managed to do my whole routine which was a win. Also I felt less exhausted during the day. Did a decent job at work.
When washing my hair I noticed quite a big shedding again but managed to ignore it in a way. Usually to calm myself down I would start giving myself facts and probabilities. Probably because of my obsessions I would keep repeating myself so that I can finally get it (lol). But just today I realized that this whole approach would make me stay on the topic for a long period. And for me it would mean seeing only a negative thing for a while which would easily put me in a negative sate. For a long time all I could see would be really bad stuff. This would mean everything is bad. No more explaining is needed here.
At work I was thinking about my gender dysphoria and noticed I wasn't very depressed or felt very bad. Then I realized that the reason for that was me mainly focusing on possibilities to change.