Sunday

One moment I felt I was falling into darkness but managed to push myself quickly by physically moving and playing some music. It's like I'm constantly trying to keep myself from drowning.
You work and build, you try to reach that happiness... and you can only enjoy that for a short time because not much time is left. Is it even worth it? To build this knowledge and suffer in pain for years and you can only enjoy it for like 10 years? And being like 60-70 is not the same as being in your 30s or 40s. You don't have that quality of life anymore.