Again a decent day but I have no idea how I did that. I'm on this momentum. Even though I'm deeply depressed and sometimes cry, at work I do a good job a few days in a row. I have no idea. A bit less caffeine, do my best to focus on work and lots of metal. During the day I feel more stable. But that could be because of less caffeine and/or less obsessions. In the evening I even managed to hype myself for a short time. I felt so depressed and dysphoric when I looked in the mirror but then told myself 'I can fix that in the future. What's the problem? Just get rich'. I wish I would be feeling like this more often. Oh and in the evening I also listened to old songs that have good emotions tied to them. I often feel like I'm not in control of myself...
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