Wednesday

The first half of the day felt terrible physically. And I still need to work when I'm almost dead.
I'm not planning on getting SRS in the future but today for the first time felt a mental spark when I knew I would go for that in the future. That was weird. Even now I'm sure I wouldn't go for it.
New coworker. A woman. Less attractive so less triggering. Noticed her painted nails though. How amazing it would be if it would be totally acceptable for me to have painted nails.