Wednesday

Today was almost exactly like yesterday, not too bad. However when I have to go home triggers are everywhere. It keeps hitting me until I actually get home. And even then I'm usually feeling very dysphoric. At home through window I saw a couple pushing a stroller. Felt so sad that I'm not this young woman...
It's possible that I might find a job where I could work at home. I would probably go out only to the hospital. Maybe the supermarket sometimes too.