Friday

Was sitting and was about to start my workout. I stood up and felt that my legs got very weak and shaky. Checked my pulse and it was around 130 bpm. Not sure if I'm having some micro panic attacks or something more serious is going on... The blood test came all right. Will make an appointment with a cardiologist.
Obsessions are real, especially when conditions for those are better at home. It's like I would be off-drugs. These stupid paranoid obsessions are so exhausting and annoying.
Sometimes I catch myself looking a bit feminine and instantly it makes me happy. For a moment.