It was a productive enough day. Sacrificed some time for obsessions but it didn't get out of hand. From time to time I feel such a huge sexual desire, my imagination runs wild and I end up feeling sad and empty.
One really weird thing happened today. For the first time in a very very long time for a short period of time I didn't feel this huge gender dysphoria. The only reason I can think of is that I was listening to an interview with Ray Dalio while working. The last time I listened to him was a long time ago. At that time dysphoria was very mild. So my guess is that the connection was made and the interview triggered a certain state, making me feel a certain way. I never felt any shift in dysphoria before. I have no idea what it was and what it means. I felt like my dysphoria could be some delusion which made me feel almost worse than dysphoria itself. At the supermarket saw a girl in thigh highs and dysphoria hit me again. Now it's 9 pm and I feel more or less like usual. But this experience was weird and I don't think I liked it.
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