In the deep hole again and having suicidal thoughts again. I just realized that maybe it's not really a hole but a block. Maybe the pain and suffering felt are the same as before. Maybe I'm just unable to see and feel good things and possibilities. I tried really hard to imagine and see my future scenario where I'm happy. After seeing the whole potential scenario I felt a tiny spark. Put some Metallica on, cried with a smile and felt almost my normal. Not sure if it will last though. Everything is still very unclear. I'm very annoyed and tired of all this.
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