Sunday

I overslept a little. But everything started when I finished a movie at around noon. Of course the fact that tomorrow is Monday helped too but watching a whole movie meant that I wasted a lot of time. I felt negative after finishing the mentioned movie. I reflected and it made sense. But then I stayed there for a whole day. Kept focusing and amplifying the negatives. Self-talk and motivation can help a little but it seems I have to start moving quite soon otherwise I stay on the negative for too long and it can get even worse. I think in the end only discipline will help. I have to push myself on the progress even if it's super hard and I don't feel like doing that.
I don't think my fucked up mind will change much. I think the only way to live is to learn how to live a different life. Like a disabled person has to learn how to take a shower. It's much harder and takes a lot more time. But it's possible.