Tuesday

Today my dysphoric momentum went on. Not only I was reacting to triggers more but also reactions were much more painful. Also for the first part of the day I felt lost and lonely. All this causes a bad mind state where I start doubting that I will ever achieve anything meaningful.
In my language there is a stupid saying that says something like 'men are like children'. This talkative coworker said that out loud and then apologized to me. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I was close to saying 'who said I'm a man?'.