Friday

I see so many women with fem bodies it makes me sad. I saw one girl with amazing legs and ass and leggings. Holy shit this hit me hard. I felt some attraction deep inside but my dysphoria is so strong that I don't really feel anything else.
First day on antidepressants. After 9 am felt fatigued. Usual stuff.
At home jumped on the hair obsession loop. Probably talked to myself for like 10-15 minutes. Oh and I talk to myself every day. I like it because in my head it's a complete mess and chaos. Chaos is a ladder. Not this time. So talking to myself out loud makes it more clear. If anyone would catch me doing that they would be really scared.