... was a good day. I feel fucked up as always, especially considering that I can't take very warm or hot weather. Had an appointment with my psychiatrist. Last time she promised to check if HRT is possible in my country. And it is! But it was only for less than 1 year. Basically European court of human rights made my country to make it happen. Of course there are many steps but at least it's possible. Next time I'm going to do some personality tests for 3 hours. That test will be divided into 2 parts so it isn't too exhausting.
I was talking about my dysphoria with my psychiatrist and it felt so weird. I never talked about this with anyone. Partly it felt like I was an imposter, making this up. Even though I would give up everything to be a real woman, I don't feel like a woman right now. I feel more like a woman than a man, that's for sure but it's like I'm still NB. Maybe that's why talking about my dysphoria and potential transition felt weird. The mindfuck can never end with this I guess.
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