Compared to yesterday it was a calm day with OCD outbursts. I got obsessed about several important topics but when I needed to go home after work, I got obsessed with my hair again. When the weather was cold everyone was with hoods or hats and now the only thing I can see is that everyone has nice hair. Dense hair. I keep telling myself that it's most likely temporary but the hair dysphoria is really strong and painful. And whenever I go outside almost every person is triggering me. Im sure it will get worse in summer when girls start to show their nice legs and curves. I have no idea how I will survive this...
I have a highway to negativity and a curvy gravel road at night to positivity. I have to remind myself all the time that it is what it is. It's not fair but you either can die or push through the suffering and have a chance for at least a part of a happy life. And these days potential is huge. Of course, if you have money.
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