Some new and different work at work so it occupied my mind a bit. Overall wasn't too bad. Even though I have A NUMBER of health issues, gender dysphoria hurts me the most. Fucking facial hair and thinned out front... it's soooooo disgusting to look at myself... If those would be fixed my appearance would change insanely. Fear, fear, fear. What if I won't be able to fix it? The probability of that is slim but it's there. Living in constant anxiety. Okay, the more time I spend on these obsessions the less time I can invest into my whole journey. You cant achieve your goal if you don't work on that, right? So when I get all super negative about how I look I remind myself that worrying and sadness only takes and gives nothing. So obsession kills progress. Well unless progress is your obsession ha.
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